Today, while at work, something came over me. I’m not sure what it was. Maybe it was stress related or perhaps it was due to not feeling well. All I know is that I was sitting there, and I decided that I was going to quit my career.
Let me provide some context. I’ve been contemplating quitting my job for a while. I’m exhausted all the time. I don’t feel appreciated, and I don’t feel my superiors want a better environment for their employees. So wanting to leave my current job is a familiar feeling, but today I decided that I don’t want to teach anymore.
I love my students, and if teaching was just about the students then my job would be easy. However, I’m tired of trying to appease adults, especially those who have never been a teacher and could never do what I do. I don’t feel like the battle is worth it, especially when I am fighting health battles on top of it.
When I leave work, I feel like I just ran a marathon. I’m physically and mentally exhausted. I’m unable to do anything else, and it seems like it’s getting worse. I don’t know if this career is worth all of that. So that is why I almost just typed up my resignation today.
However, reality set in. Not only do I need health insurance, but I need good health insurance. I am currently waiting for a kidney transplant, and it is a requirement that I maintain health insurance. As much as I want to run away from my job or walk away from my career, I know that I am in the best possible position for my situation.
I’ve made many impulsive decisions in my past that I now realize was a mistake, so I’m going to try not to let history repeat itself. But let us pray for my strength and sanity.